Anemia

I want to give a quick update about what’s been happening. I have been dealing with severe anemia again.

My iron is extremely low in my body, making me feel run down exhausted, be dizziness, and concentration is difficult. I am handling everything day by day.

My doctor believes somewhere internally that my body is losing a little bit of blood whether that’s in my digestive track or being caused by my menstrual cycle is yet to be determined.

I’m in the process now of getting tests done and being referred to other doctors to determine the causes of my anemia. I will be starting iron infusions in the next couple of weeks, which I’m hoping it will be next week. Until then I’m just taking it easy.

Here are the links to my podcasts:

https://anchor.fm/alexandra-mars1/episodes/Fridays-Topic-anemia-Dec-3–2021-e1b7gbc

https://anchor.fm/alexandra-mars1/episodes/Fridays-Topic-update-on-my-Anemia-Dec-10–2021-e1bht9j

The War on Clutter

Here’s is the link if you would like to listen: https://anchor.fm/alexandra-mars1/episodes/The-War-on-Clutter-e1aed8g

Have you ever wondered why some people are born with organizational skills and others have to learn those same skills? Or have you wondered why people allow clutter to build? I have been thinking about those questions lately, dealing with my war on clutter.

There are people born with minds that can easily organize items and if they grew up in a family with an organizational plan, and learned it. Organizing items becomes easy and painless for those individuals, maintaining a clean home and clutter-free is very easy for them.

Then are people like me who battle with clutter, and the war does not end. Ugh! Why do I struggle with clutter building in my home? Lately, I have been asking myself that question a lot. And I have come up with some answers to that question.

When a person gets used to clutter, it becomes normal. Until an unexpected visitor stops by, reminding that person having a cluttered home is unhealthy.

Yes, I said it, having clutter around you all the time is unhealthy. It can affect your mood, your health, and your mental state. Clutter can cause you to fall or hurt yourself. The main reason, why I keep fighting against the war on clutter is because I want my home to be safe and productive for me. I don’t want to worry about an unexpected visitor coming to my door.

People who can spot clutter in their homes need to understand people who live with clutter have a difficult time spotting it. When we do, dealing with clutter is so overwhelming that we don’t know where to begin. We walk away. Ugh! Our homes are a huge mess!

I don’t know how many times that I have walked away from clutter! Because I was frustrated and angry at myself, for letting it get out of control in the first place. I did not have the skills to deal with clutter or the understanding, that when you spot a small clutter pile starting, that’s when you nip it in the butt!

I never understood when I was staying in a place that was well organized and I had no trouble following the system. I could keep my space clean and tidy without any issues. Once I return home, my old habits arose again, and soon my place was out of control. It never dawned on me that the reason why I would return to my old habits; that I never had an organization plan that fitted my needs for my home.

People who are born organizers understand the need to have a organization plan within their homes to keep their homes clutter-free. This is what I desperately need for my home, but my problem is I don’t know how to develop a plan.

After watching my hand therapist and her team in their workspace, I am very impressed with how they keep their work area clutter-free and very tidy. I noticed they always get the items from the cabinets and when they are done. They put those items in their designated space to be used by the team member.

I explain to my hand therapist that I was impressed with how well organized they were and how clean the work area was. So, my therapist explained when she started working there that the place was a huge mess and unorganized. That it took her and the other therapist almost ten months to get it organized. I found that statement enlightening because I was always under the impression that people who had those organizational skills could get things done very quickly. I never thought that they also have their own struggles, when designing an organizational plan. She and her coworker stayed committed to getting their workplace organized, and their dedication shows how clean their work area is.

I understand why I had failed all these years to keep my home organized and clutter-free. I gave up too soon, in my war because I became overwhelmed and frustrated with the process. Organizing isn’t easy, for ones that have organized skills they can see their outcome and stay committed to their task. All I can see is the clutter instead of my goal.

Now, I must be committed to my plan of organization and remember to do what I can by using baby steps. Clutter didn’t happen overnight in my home and getting my home cleaned won’t happen overnight, either. If I stay committed and create a system that works for me, then I will achieve my goal.

Nov 5, 2022

Last night, I edited two chapters of my manuscript. I am starting to get immersed within my story again, and that is a very good thing. Since I have been away from it. It’s also good to have distance away from the story, looking at it with fresh eyes at the material that I have already written to help find the errors and make sure that the plot is understandable to the reader.

One thing I realized from being away from my story so long is that I need better notes; so I know how to keep things going on within the plot with the new changes, and some of the ideas that I had previously thought about before I became sick. I’m hoping the new software that I using will help with that in the future. And I did make a lot of notes in my previous draft and that is helping quite a bit.

The plot is strong and my cast of characters is developing nicely, but there were some changes that I wanted to make within the story, and I just haven’t found those notes. What I wanted to do is coming back to me, which is a good thing. So what I have learned about this is that I need to make well-detailed notes or have a better outline for future manuscripts. Because when I do get sick it does take a lot out of me physically and mentally, and I need to be prepared for that.

My goals for this week of Oct 17, 2021

These are the things that I want to accomplish this week to help me to get back on track with my schedule.

1. Decluttering my bedroom

2. Work on my laundry

3. Read Dune

4. Work on my outline

5. Editing my manuscript

7. Create mock book covers for my outline and manuscript

6. Get back in the routine of exercising

How many lists of things to get to get done helps me to get back on track after dealing with a major infection and having a flare-up. Perhaps, my list of goals will help somebody else dealing with Rheumatoid arthritis.

Oct 13, 2021

Yesterday, I received my infusion, and the flare-up is over! I am feeling much better. Now, I need to get back into my schedule and start to exercise again. So, I will be working on that this week.

I am blessed to have found a biologic that works for me. There are others with RA that it takes trying different medications to find what works for them.

Rheumatoid Arthritis is an nasty disease and it affects everyone differently.

Day 4 of the Flare-up of Rheumatoid Arthritis

Here’s a link if you would like to listen:

https://anchor.fm/alexandra-mars1/episodes/Day-4-of-the-Flare-up-of-Rheumatoid-Arthritis-e18jgt5/a-a6m6rkn

Yep, it is day four of the flare-up. And I am not feeling the greatest right now as I’m writing this post. Yesterday, I was up real late the night before, and it messed up my sleeping schedule. So, I just took it easy yesterday and didn’t do anything. Today, I just feel really lousy which is normal, dealing with a flare-up.

So yeah I am writing this post trying to decide what I want for breakfast. Do I wanna scramble some eggs or do I just wanna eat some cereal. So yeah. So I took a medication I have to wait about at least 30 minutes before I can eat. So I started thinking that you are wondering how do I prepare meals during a flareup. Which is a good question.

Well, I’ve always been a huge fan of leftovers. And I always like making extra food when I prepare a meal for the times when my energy levels are low or like times like this when I’m dealing with the RA. Which helps when it comes to having food prepared ahead of time. Last night I had leftovers; I had a hamburger, some macaroni salad, and macaroni and cheese that was my dinner. It was delicious.

Tonight‘s dinner is going to be something simple and easy to fix. I’m not spending a lot of time over the stove cooking a huge meal. I want to have some smoke sausage and probably a couple of cans of vegetables. That later this week, I’ll have different kinds of leftovers in my fridge. I like to have variety in my leftovers. And this helps me by taking off the pressure for what’s for dinner? Also, having a variety of leftovers helps with not getting bored eating the same thing over and over again. Still at the same time trying to have a healthy balanced diet as well, which can be hard at times when you’re dealing with a chronic illness like rheumatoid arthritis.

Having leftovers helps to reduce relying on eating fast food. And that’s what I am trying to cut down on. So I use leftovers to make sure I have meals when I need them and when I feel like it I also cook. So this is how I handle what’s for dinner when I have a flare-up.

Back Pain

Here’s the link if you would to listen:

https://anchor.fm/alexandra-mars1/episodes/Back-Pain-e13c8hi

Today, I woke with my lower back still aching and stiff, but I’m a lot better from last night. I’m counting down the days until I get my biologic medicine.

Keep moving—is burned into my mind. If I allow myself to stop moving, then my other joints will become stiff and swollen. I will lose my mobility.

If I lose my mobility, then I will lose my freedom, my independence, and I don’t want that.

There are other things that I want to do like finishing my manuscript, grow my podcast audience, play with my cat, and spend time with my family.

To live my best life.